Speak Up: pregnancy & infant loss

I had a completely different post planned for today but then my IG feed blew up this morning with so many posts about today, October 15 being Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. 

I would be remiss if I didn't post about it today. 

It's no secret that I suffer from infertility.  I have also experienced some of the greatest losses of my life in the past five years. I have had 4 miscarriages and the memories of my angel babies are always there. 

Recently at MOPs we were playing the icebreaker game 4 corners. One of the questions was "How many children do you have out of the womb?"  I was a t a loss as to which corner I should go to. Should I go to the "One child" corner since we have Ellie? Or to the "Four or more" corner because technically my angel babies are out of the womb - just not in the traditional meaning of the question. Ultimately I chose to go to the "One child" corner because I wasn't ready to explain myself not put a damper on the game. 

Dealing with infertility is a constant bummer and I don't think a day goes by that I don't think about our disease or our angel babies. 

I am so grateful to have to opportunity to bring awareness to this awful disease and loss. It affects so many more men and women than you know. Not all of us are ready to share our story but please always remember to think before you speak and to raise your children to be kind. 

I have learned so much about myself through our losses and I feel that i probably appreciate Ellie so much more than if I hadn't gone through the struggle of infertility and suffering the losses of my babies. 

Please help spread the word and remember how precious you little ones are. 

All photos are from IG. #pregnancyloss #pregnancyandinfantloss #miscarriage