Well I have been doing a lot of thinking lately. I have noticed that many bloggers are focusing on a word for the year. I have been going back and forth with what word I wanted to align myself with. I was debating between present and gratefulness, but this weekend it hit me: content.
I need to be content in my life, where it is right now. I have always found myself looking into the future and living towards that: moving to a new house, getting pregnant (and it actually sticking), adopting a sibling for Ellie, or other improvements I think will fill the void I feel from our 4 miscarriages, not being able to get pregnant, not being able to give Ellie a sibling.
The thing is, I need to be content where I'm at. While our current home is not my dream house or our forever home, I do enjoy it and need to just stop and be happy that we have a house that has room for Ellie to play, property for our animals and that our house is small enough to be manageable. There really is nothing wrong with our house and I need to be content.
The fact of the matter is - I need to accept that maybe pregnancy isn't going to be an option for me and I need to be content in the way that God has planned for how our family will grow. As an infertile I focus so much time and energy on what day of the month it is, could this be an early pregnancy symptom, maybe it's just spotting...and the list goes on. After 5 years it really is taking its toll on me. I need to stop and be content in our family of three and be okay that Ellie and her future sibling aren't going to be as close in age as I had always hoped. Be content and focus on the babe I have in my life. A sibling will come when the time is right.
So there it is. Contentment. I am focusing on being content with where my life is now and to be happy with it.
♥ Ashley
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Bravo and hugs. It's a great word and so many could focus it, we all live in this generation of seeing everyone's elses lives and makes you get these artificial wants. I too strive for contentment in lots of areas and need to keep focusing on that.
ReplyDeleteContentment is a great word to choose. And one that everyone needs to work on! It's so easy to be ungrateful for the wonderful things we already have when looking at someone else.
ReplyDeleteLast year my word was hope. I'm not sure what my word of the year will be yet. I haven't quite settled on one, but I'm leaning towards "Believe" for a lot of different reasons. Perhaps I should write a post about it :)
Contentment is sooo important. I don't have one for this year, but I think if I picked one, it would be progress. I should write about that! Thanks for sharing!
ReplyDeleteYes, yes, yes! Love this!
ReplyDeleteElizabeth
www.allkindsofthingsblog.com
Love this!
ReplyDeleteThis is a great post and content is a great word to focus on. I think it's a word that a lot of people struggle with - I know I certainly do. There is always "more" or "better" or "different." It can be hard to accept what "is." Good luck! :)
ReplyDeleteWhat a wonderful word to choose! You are inspiring :)
ReplyDeleteGREAT word! I read the best quote on contentment the other day: "Fortify yourself with contentment, for this is an impregnable fortress." When I see contentment as something like a strong tower, I can seal in joy, peace, and love. Contentment can also protect against anger, frustrations, and unrest. Thanks for linking up! Your site is beautiful! :)
ReplyDeleteSarah (www.sarahefrazer.com)
I have been there and I know it is so hard. blessings to all of you.
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