The thing about infertility is that it has ebbs and flows...you have high times and low times. But you can usually pinpoint a "reason" for having a low time.
I try to be a fairly positive individual and I think I do a pretty good job of it.
This cycle has been a challenging one. Mostly because it was during the holiday season and so many people like to share on Social Media that they are expecting around this time, you also get a lot of them in Christmas Cards. While I am happy for these people it sure does stab me in the heart like a dagger and then add a little twist to it.
I came to the realization yesterday - with the appearance of "Aunt Flo" and a big fat NEGATIVE that these are the days where I feel my lowest. I know that the hubs and I are not taking any medical measures right now to get pregnant, we are just putting our faith in God and His timing. But these days are tough nonetheless. Sometimes its a little easier to "snap out of it" than others. Yesterday was tough. Like really tough.
This last cycle was weird. I totally felt the "mittelschmerz" this time and then started spotting a few days later. We timed ourselves accordingly but still got a negative. BUMMER.
I am SO hoping that this year I get to make our Pregnancy Announcement and do all that fun stuff. But that just isn't in the cards for right now. Praying. Please pray for us as well. Pray for healing, timing, understanding, and peace.